laser, I am truely sorry you are not at home with your family. But that is part of the job. Every job has it's good and bad. As I told a crew that spent over an hour bitching how bad their life sucked - if it is so bad - quit. It is a job and there are other jobs that may be easier to take. I found one. I like what I do. I feel I am making a difference. Some days are better than others. Bitching is a way of releaving stress. Just don't let it take over your life. Then it is not much of a life.
I am catching up on e-mails today. I have too many I have not answered.
While you are feeling sorry for your self just think of the military people standing guard up to their ass in mud, snow, sand, and crap so you can sleep in that warm and dry room. Sometimes ya just have to step back and look at what you got.