So, let me get this straight. After trying, what, twice(at least once, for sure) you decided not to try it, and now the airplane is a death trap? This sounds like an opportunity to learn a lesson and tell a few people that they were right. Not spout off about how you wish "whomever tries to fly" it luck. You were this person just a couple of weeks ago. Make one wonder how many times you've cheated death traps in the past. You sure were confident before. However, it seems that you did indicate you'd go east with it. Can I assume you'd still make a N. Atl. crossing in this death trap?