I'll start keeping score for you. So far we have, by your own admission:
-You have "Meltdowns"
-Your "mouthy"
-You speak without thought of the consequences
-You readily bash your employers in public, or worse in industry forums
-Your involved in domestic violence with kids in the room
-Your now ex girlfriend was a coke-head
-You may be trying to force yourself out of aviation on a subconscious level
-A career change is on your agenda
-You don't care if what you say in public kills your career
-You tell stories out of school about the people you fly with
-You're not only flawed, you're "highly flawed"
Keep going, I'll be happy to make additions. You really make yourself out to be a great candidate for a pilot position. Or maybe a postal worker.
Legacy Driver - You sound like a pilot I know... When I was a kid I always thought pilots were the coolest... now that I am into my career as a pilot I find it harder and harder to find normal people in this industry... sad! No wonder the "pilot" line doesn't work in the bars any longer