This probably doesn't help much, but the first ten years or so of my flying career, I was often out of work once or twice a year. Company layoffs, companies that closed, companies that moved me and then closed that branch or office, etc. While establishing a flying career, I found myself cleaning supermarket floors, doing night security, servicing ATM's, dispatching for a sheriff's office, watering roses in a greenhouse, working in a rubber stamp factory, driving a delivery truck, substitute teaching high school, and a number of other equally exciting and rewarding jobs.
I'm very sorry to hear of your condition, and I certainly don't mean to make light of it. I'll do anything I can to help or help find work, if I hear of it. I just mention this to say don't get discouraged. It's not so uncommon as folks today might believe; been there many times before, and won't be surprised if I'm there again. It does get better. It does get worse. However, it all goes away after a short time, work is found again, and flying once more commences.
You need to believe that, despite the feelings to the contrary. Things do look bleak at times, and sometimes they are. However, it's a temporary state. Don't just believe that. Know it. I know it, and weather or not your inner self will admit it, you know it too. Sorry to hear of the loss, but things WILL improve.