Remember the old saying, " It is better to be down here wishing you were up there, than being up there wishing you were down here." Stick to your guns. Only you know your limitations and don't ever let anyone change them. I had an employer once who called me everything under thesun because I refused to fly his plane with the engines running rough. He relented a had them checked only to find that 12 cylinders were cracked on a navajo due to the previous pilot overboosting the engines. Remember, you are a professional and you are trained to make those unpopular decisions. Best of luck to you. When you explain what happened to a potential employer, they would be foolish not to consider a safety minded aviator.. Don't give up on your dream..