rumpletumbler
Hey, Tumbleweed [term of endearment];
Cheer up, it's not your fault. Choices are choices, some work out some don't. I hope the other parts of your life are kicking into gear to compensate. I never thought I'd have to change diapers, cook three meals a day and be available sexually to keep my wife motivated doing a job she didn't much like. But, you got to do what you got to do.
Economy is kicking every bodies ass. I grew up in a family earning a mid to upper mid income. I am at the very lowest end of that scale at the moment and it has been much more than just a moment. If it was not for this forum I might go nuts. But I have the education, experience and motivation to climb back out when the opportunities arise. You have to keep a positive outlook regardless of what is happening or you will be in another place when the opportunities become available. You won't be in a mind to recognize them.
Even though you can see your goal sometimes you have to take a side route to get there or many side routes. The idea is to keep your dreams and goals in sight and keep working. You still have a family on your side. I lost everything so I know what you are feeling. Work to strength the things you have and don't worry about what you don't have.